What's wrong with me?

The year was 2002.

To get sick with a life threatening illness gave me a devastating feeling of mortality, I had never known before. When I discovered that my kidneys were very sick, my digestive organs suffering from erosion, my thyroid malfunctioning and my gynecological instruments not well, I almost lost every sense of meaning.

Hopelessness totally enveloped my existence.

Nothingness, as in nothing meant anything.

Difficult as it was, I began my journey towards finding out for real why my body has almost given up on me.